I was put on anti-depressants because my doc is worried about PPD. I've been on them before and feel like once things are "safe" after the baby is born, I can get off of them again. I feel like the last straw, though, was my sister. I realized why she was so anxious to find a location, and it had nothing to do with my baby shower.
She started IVF treatments. Started them within days of booking a baby shower location, in fact. It was HER schedule she was worried about. I would LOVE to be ecstatic for her. She will have found out this week if the first treatment took. Probably yesterday or today. I just keep hoping she keeps it under wraps until after my baby shower...which is Sunday.
I am happy for her...she wants a baby so badly. But part of me is just screaming "You couldn't have waited TWO MORE MONTHS!?!" like...really...is it so bad to me just have my day? I think that this is seriously what sent me over the edge into the funk.
On another note. My mom told me what my family got me for the baby shower...because it wasn't off my registry. Okay...well...one problem...I was a moron and didn't take the bath tub off the registry when i got the freebie from work...so now I will have two bath tubs. This alone is not a problem...except that the same day my mom emailed me, my friend bought the carseat I registered for...my mom bought a travel system. I assumed that since the registry said the car seat was purchased, my mom had bought it. WRONG. D got home today and there's the Graco snugride hanging out on my deck. *sigh* So now I will have to take it back and explain to my friend why I don't have it. She will most likely be disappointed, but understand. We plan on potentially using the store credit to get a convertible seat for when the baby is bigger. If the credit doesn't expire before then. If it does, then we can potentially use it for other things we need (like more diapers).
Oh...and my family is descending on me Saturday instead of Sunday...thank god I am taking tomorrow off work...hopefully I can finish cleaning the house. The bedroom is the biggest issue. I just cleaned the kitchen last week...so it's just dishes and wiping things down this week. I think that's my update. :) The meds are starting to work, so I don't hate my sister and her turkey baster as much...and I even am optimistic about my sisters' and mom's extended visit.
