Family Drama in a nutshell

Okay...been a while, but here's an update.

I was put on anti-depressants because my doc is worried about PPD. I've been on them before and feel like once things are "safe" after the baby is born, I can get off of them again. I feel like the last straw, though, was my sister. I realized why she was so anxious to find a location, and it had nothing to do with my baby shower.

She started IVF treatments. Started them within days of booking a baby shower location, in fact. It was HER schedule she was worried about. I would LOVE to be ecstatic for her. She will have found out this week if the first treatment took. Probably yesterday or today. I just keep hoping she keeps it under wraps until after my baby shower...which is Sunday.

I am happy for her...she wants a baby so badly. But part of me is just screaming "You couldn't have waited TWO MORE MONTHS!?!" like...really...is it so bad to me just have my day? I think that this is seriously what sent me over the edge into the funk.

On another note. My mom told me what my family got me for the baby shower...because it wasn't off my registry. Okay...well...one problem...I was a moron and didn't take the bath tub off the registry when i got the freebie from work...so now I will have two bath tubs. This alone is not a problem...except that the same day my mom emailed me, my friend bought the carseat I registered for...my mom bought a travel system. I assumed that since the registry said the car seat was purchased, my mom had bought it. WRONG. D got home today and there's the Graco snugride hanging out on my deck. *sigh* So now I will have to take it back and explain to my friend why I don't have it. She will most likely be disappointed, but understand. We plan on potentially using the store credit to get a convertible seat for when the baby is bigger. If the credit doesn't expire before then. If it does, then we can potentially use it for other things we need (like more diapers).

Oh...and my family is descending on me Saturday instead of Sunday...thank god I am taking tomorrow off work...hopefully I can finish cleaning the house. The bedroom is the biggest issue. I just cleaned the kitchen last week...so it's just dishes and wiping things down this week. I think that's my update. :) The meds are starting to work, so I don't hate my sister and her turkey baster as much...and I even am optimistic about my sisters' and mom's extended visit.

Now...update on me

SO...my sister decided to go with the location downtown that I suggested first for the baby shower. Go figure. Also, I'm getting tested for pre-e. 2 times, now, I have peed into a bowl and poured it into a collection thing for 12 hours. The first time they were "unable to get a good baseline reading." I do not know what this means, I only hope it will not be a repeat issue with this second attempt. I should know what the results of all the labwork are tomorrow or Monday at the latest and will update you guys then. Until then, I'm still suffering from dizzy spells, headaches, and spots. The swelling is getting a bit worse...the spots are definitely worse...and the dizzy spells are better. I don't know if this is because I'm used to them, or because my BP isn't spiking as high. I'm basically doing the same thing with this that I am with my job situation...taking it one day at a time.

Oh yeah...and in case that didn't make it into a previous post. I may not have a job after March...but I won't know until the end of March. Which sucks ass.

Menu Day Three

So...day two and day three are switched from the original menu. This is because I forgot about the whole "soaking the beans" thing. Luckily, Wednesday is our "whatever" day during the week...so it was fairly easy to switch Tuesday and Thursday without issue.

A couple of notes: I replaced the butter with olive oil and the marjoram with oregano. I prepared this the day before and just put it in the crock pot for the day to cook. It was amazing.

Day Three: Old-fashioned black bean soup

1 pound dried black beans, picked over, soaked overnight, and drained

1 ham bone or ham hock

6 cups chicken broth or water

3 T unsalted butter

2 Med-sized onions, chopped

2 cloves of garlic, minced

1 c. chopped celery, including some leaves

1 tsp marjoram

1 bay leaf

salt to taste

freshly ground black pepper

1/2 c. dry sherry (optional)

1. Combine the drained beans, ham bone or hock, and broth in the slow cooker. Cover and cook on HIGH until boiling, about 1 hour

2. Meanwhile, in a large skillet over medium heat, melt butter. Add the onions, garlic, and celery and cook, stirring a few times, until softened. Add to the cooker along with the marjoram and bay leaf. Cover and cook on LOW 7 to 8 hours.

3. Discard the bay leaf and bone, returning any bits of meat to the soup. Puree in batches in a food processor. Taste to adjust the seasonings. Add some water to thin, if desired. Ladle into bowls and serve hot.

Menu Day Two

Crazy easy and crazy good. I don't even like pepperoni and I went back for seconds and ate leftovers the next day. Between D and myself, we ate the entire pan in 2 days.

Day Two: Bisquick Pizza bake

3 1/3c. Bisquick mix (see below for homemade bisquick)

1 c. milk

2 cans (8 oz each) pizza sauce

1 package (8 oz) sliced pepperoni

2 c. (8 oz) shredded mozzarella

1. Heat oven to 375F. Spray 13x9 glass baking dish with cooking spray. In a medium bowl, stir bisquick mix and milk until a soft dough forms.

2. Drop half the dough by spoonfuls evenly over the bottom of the dish. Drizzle 1 can pizza sauce over the dough. Scatter half the pepperoni over sauce. Top with 1 c. cheese. Repeat layers with remaining dough, sauce, pepperoni, and cheese.

3. Bake 20 to 25 minutes.

2008 General Mills. Best Bisquick Recipes.

Baking mix (aka...Bisquick)

9 cups flour

2/3 c. dry milk

3 T baking powder

2 tsp. salt

1 c. shortening

Mix flour and other dry ingredients. Cut in shortening. Store in an air-tight container for up to 6 months.

2004. Dining on a Dime.

Our venture into Menus

Okay...so D and I decided to venture into the land of menus...since we don't eat till like 10 if I have to make something when I get home...this way I can crock-pot most of our meals and it will be set ahead of time what we are eating. I've already failed! We're supposed to be having black bean soup tomorrow...but I can't do the prep stuff tonight because I forgot to soak the beans...may have to just rearrange things a bit...

Tonight: Clear Soup with Meatballs

This is not a crock-pot one, but I did prep everything the night before...it literally took about 20 minutes to come together...unfortunately, D won't be home till 9 or so. I used a package (8 oz) of fresh baby bellas in place of the mushrooms. I also used olive oil instead of peanut oil. I used a pound of beef (we're meat eaters), so I left the onion the same, upped the garlic, and added a little extra corn starch and a whole egg. Generally, the ground beef isn't "finely" ground around here, so I put it all in the food processor to mix together. This has the added effect of pretty evenly distributing everything as well as grinding the meat up a bit more. I think the instructions call for doing this anyway, but at least you don't have to worry about how fine your meat is. Also, I added more stock, as we added more meat and more mushrooms.

Clear Soup with Meatballs

4 to 6 dried Chinese mushrooms, soaked in warm water for 30 minutes

2 Tb Peanut oil

1 large onion, minced

2 garlic cloves, minced

1/2-inch piece fresh ginger root, bruised

2 1/4 quarts beef stock

1 Tb soy sauce

1 1/2 oz shredded kale, spinach, or Napa cabbage.

for the meatballs

6 oz finely ground beef

1 small onion, minced

1 to 2 garlic cloves, crushed

1 Tb cornstarch

a little egg white, lightly beaten

salt and fresh ground black pepper

1. Prepare the meatballs: Mix the beef with the onion, garlic, cornstarch, and seasoning in a food processor. Bind the mixture with sufficient egg white to make it firm. With wet hands, roll into tiny, bite-size balls; set aside.

2. Drain the mushrooms, reserving the soaking liquid. Trim off and discard the stems. Slice the caps finely and set aside.

3. Heat a wok or a large sauce pain. Heat the oil. Add the onion, garlic, and ginger and fry to bring out the flavors, but do not let them brown.

4. When the onion is soft, pour in the stock and bring to a boil. Stir in the soy sauce and mushroom slices and simmer for 10 minutes. Add the meatballs and cook for 10 minutes.

5. Just before serving, remove the ginger. Stir in the shredded kale, spinach, or cabbage. Heat through for 1 minute. Serve at once.

The Soup Bible. 2002 Barnes and Noble Books

Because Elaine requested it: Split Pea and Ham soup

1 lb split peas, soaked overnight

4 bacon slices

1 onion, roughly chopped

2 carrots, sliced

1 celery stalk, sliced

2 1/2 quarts cold water

1 sprig fresh thyme

1 bay leaves

1 large potato, roughly diced

1 ham hock

black pepper

1. Cut the bacon into small pieces. In a large saucepan, dry fry the bacon 4-5 minutes, or until crisp. Remove from the pan with a slotted spoon.

2. Add the onion, carrots, and celery to the fat in the pan and cook for 3-4 minutes until the onion is soft but not brown. Return the bacon to the pan with the water.

3. Drain the split peas and add to the pan with the thyme, bay leaves, potato, and ham hock and bring to boil. Lower heat, cover and simmer for an hour. (or as long as you like really...I simmered the shit out of those peas)

4. Remove the thyme, bay leaves, and ham hock. Process the soup in a blender or food processor until the desired consistency. Return to the pan. Cut the meat from the hock, add to the soup, and heat through. Season with black pepper.

The OTHER little one

Okay...so until I got pregnant, Brutus was my baby. I even carried him on my hip when he was a puppy and got tired. I know, I know...but I loves my baby. ANYWAY...

The past couple of months, he's been exhibiting some weird behavior. I'm not sure if it's behavioral or environmental. Basically...he'll pester to be petted...and then when I tell him no and to lay down because I don't want to pet him, he'll wander off to a different room and heave until he vomits bile. I don't want him to be sick, but at the same time, I would hate to pay for a vet visit because my dog is emotionally bulimic.

It seems to me it's more behavioral than environmental, mostly because it's only happend like 3 or 4 times in the past month...it's not consistent. We are going to try giving him a little food in the morning and a little food at night and see if that helps. We are also going to try letting him sleep in the bedroom, as well. I think he knows that something is up and is trying to compensate. I've been cutting back on the attention I pay him because I know that he won't get as much once the baby is here, and I'm thinking it might be more of a reaction to this.

I just don't know what to do...because he's been sick before...and this is not how he acts when he's sick. Another reason I feel it's more of a behavioral/emotional response to things than an actual physical response.