Down Day

I think maybe the prozac isn't working? I don't know but I'm lying here on the couch with my baby girl on my chest...and i'm just crying...not sobbing uncontrollably, but crying. I want to feel good, but I'm still upset about the birth and my family and I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to enjoy my baby because of everything else. My incision hurts worse today...but also the nerves above the numb spot on my belly are sore for some reason.

I just want to be me...but so much in my world and life has changed, I'm not sure I know who I am anymore.